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There are so many things in life that leave you scarred and dealing with "side effects" of what happpened; things that leave their mark on  you. Our relationships from the time we're born make their marks and create the person we become. From the relationships we have with our parents, to our first friendships, our loves, to the relationship we create with ourselves to events and experiences, they all leave their mark on us and change who we are becoming with each turn.

There were many things that I can look back on and say "that forever changed me", but the thing that was most difficult for me to comprehend and that forever changed me as an adult was of course, my miscarriage. I've written many poems about it some I've shared, most I haven't. It's hard to let people in on those experiences that are still somewhat painful for you.

On E=MC2, Mariah wrote a long overdue song, Side Effects, about her marriage to Tommy Mattola, former CEO of Sony. Privately, any painful situation is difficult to manage but add the public's prying eye on top of it, well I can't imagine. There is a line in Side Effects  that for me is so telling, Still a little depressed inside, I fake a smile and deal with the side effects. We've all done that haven't we? Faked our smiles and happiness to avoid dealing with the true issue at hand.

When the album first came out, Mariah was unsure about releasing Side Effects as a single or if she'd ever perform it live because it was just so personal. Last week, she was on Jimmy Kimmel and peformed 5 songs, one of them, Side Effects. Apparently, it's between I Stay In Love and Side Effects for the next single. I don't know what made her change her mind and the performance above is seriously one of my favorite. You can see she's a bit nervous in the beginning but towards the end, she's garnered her strength and has overcome.  Which is quite apropro for the song, don't you think?