4 posts tagged “mommy”
It's been an eventful day for Drew and I.
There are certain things you grow up thinking. For example, as child I grew up thinking I was a world famous actress/singer/dancer who had fans following my every move (not much has changed). I also grew up thinking, I'll never become my mother.
It's amazing what having a child does. While I do still believe there are fundamental differences between my mother and I, I find myself doing things just the way she did. When I was growing up, everything became a song. My mother sang "Do you have to use the bathroom?" to me. Every sentence had a melody. She even made songs out of my teacher's names (Miss Chipperini, my first grade teacher became, Chipperini Soup...).
So this morning while I was watching Drew play, he looked over at me and smiled and I started to sing "Handsome man, you're such a handsome man..." I stopped, realizing, I am becoming more like the very woman I spent 10 years rebelling against.
You know, it's not such a terrible thing. I have some wonderful memories of my mother. My mother made everything fun. She filled the room with light and laughter. She pushed me to do more, to do better, taught me to be a loyal, devoted and caring friend and helped me see that love is a forever thing. You don't give up or walk away because things get hard. It's those times you love more.
So it's not a terrible thing to see more of my mother in me. As long as I can still see the mother I want to be, I think I'll be alright.
I've waited a long time to be a mother. While we were trying, I would see mom's with these charms around their neck, they look like head's, representing each child they had. I'm not much of a jewelry person but Lord, I wanted that charm. I didn't even like it, I just wanted it because it meant that some little person was part of me.
Now that I'm a mother, well, I still don't like those charms. BUT I did find these. Isabella Grace Jewelry makes mommy jewelry that is both stylish and understated. It's a bit expensive for me right now, so I won't be ordering it but who knows (note that instead of 'Levi' on the round charm you are supposed to get your child's name, for me 'Drew'). Maybe for next Christmas...
At least now I CAN get it! And knowing that means more than having it.